Adam Ant at the 100 Club, January 2011
|Birth name||Stuart Leslie Goddard|
3 November 1954 |
Marylebone, London, England
Adam and the Ants
Bipolar disorder, manic depression, depression, black dog, whatever you want to call it, is inherent in our society. It's a product of stress and in my case over-work.
I wanted to make good records. But my problem is I've got a low boredom threshold, so I wanted it to look and sound different with each album, which is really tantamount to suicide, cause people lose it, they lose it – they say: 'I like that, and that's not this.'
I got a little house in East L.A. and did the gardening. I was doing some acting here and there, doing my own thing… getting back to reality.
When I was on a major label I felt obliged to say yes to every interview, tour and whatever else. The label is always telling you, 'This ain't going to last,' so I worked myself half to death. I learnt from that and I like to pace myself now.
I really knew I wanted to be Adam, because Adam was the first man. Ant I chose because, if there's a nuclear explosion, the ants will survive.
Antidepressants are very good, but it's a clinical cosh, really. Sometimes you have to be knocked out, just to stop; when you're in that state all you want to do is just sleep, and rest your body and your brain.
The brain isn't like the heart. They learned how to transplant a heart. The brain is more complex.
I think what's going on with gorillas is pretty bad. The fact is that you can buy gorilla meat in London any day you want it.
People weren't buying as many records. My record company did not want me. I went through three record companies, went on tour at the wrong time. It destroyed me.
It's good to play 100 per cent live – no tricks, no samples, no messing about.
My daughter's the greatest thing that's happened to me in my life and she turned me into a more responsible man, as opposed to just someone who's a perpetual teenager, thinking you're a man when you're not.
I just think, certainly for live music it should look as good as it sounds.
Depression is something that doesn't just go away. It's just… there and you deal with it. It's like… malaria or something. Maybe it won't be cured, but you've got to take the medication you're prescribed, and you stay out of situations that are going to trigger it.
When you work as hard as you can and as much as you can to make your first album, and you don't make any money, then you change things.
Prison's a walk in the park compared with being sectioned, mate, it really is.
Mental health needs a great deal of attention. It's the final taboo and it needs to be faced and dealt with.
I've been told I sold 110m albums and singles. If that's the case, I should've come here in a space rocket.
I am quite an early riser – I usually get up between 5.30 and 6am and take the dogs out.
Since the decline of record companies and music sales, I've always played live.
I just became a vegetable for three months. I couldn't talk to people. I was very ill and that was part of the reason I left college.
It may be a coincidence, but from the minute I took anti-depressants, I didn't pick up a guitar or a pen for seven years.